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i don't know what to do with myself. i think i may have hit a quarter life crisis. i'd rather not waste time with the small talk, fake talk, chillin' with friends who you know damn well aren't your "real" friends. The only thing that tickles my fancy is indulging in novels and magazines. ayyykarumba.

"If you hold back on the emotions— if you don’t allow yourself to go all the way through them— you can never get to being detached, you’re too busy being afraid. You’re afraid of the pain, you’re afraid of the grief. You’re afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.

But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, ‘Alright. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.’

Same for loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely— but eventually be able to say, ‘Alright, that was my moment with loneliness. I’m not afraid of feeling lonely, but now I’m going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world, and I’m going to experience them as well.

— Morrie Schwartz, Tuesday With Morrie