so this is how it goes.

In the beginning you'll probably be captivated by my attitude. You'll say i'm "different", or that you can't even compare me to the past women in your life because we're nothing alike. You're probably going to want to get to know me better, & be interested in my life. Maybe you won't even mind driving two hours every other night to see me because i'm "worth it". You won't care what we do, because you're happy just being with me. Fighting with me, or being mad at me won't even cross your mind because it's too early on in our so called "relationship" and we're both fazed by the honeymoon stage. Then our feelings will grow into something more. If you like me enough, you'll let me know that you've never done some of these things for another girl that you do for me. We'll have late night cupcake sessions on the phone that mostly consist of "i hella miss you" & "i wish you were here"s. You'll drive my car because you know i hate driving & even clean it for me, although that might be for your sake, rather mines. So as time passes by we'll become more comfortable than we've ever been with eachother. You'll still be into me, but i'll be able to affect your emotions and actions a lot more, & vice versa. We're going to get mad over the stupidest things like seeing your ex-girl friend or me calling your brother cute. You will get passive with me, while i become insecure & our cupcake sessions will simply turn into sessions. You're going to make me cry myself to sleep, and leave me wondering how things could have changed so drastically. i won't be able to be myself around you, & you won't be yourself either. we'll both contemplate separately on whether to end it or not. i'll decide that you're worth my time & effort because you're my sweet misery & i have faith in us. You on the other hand will end it with me because you just don't want to try anymore. You'll leave me with sleepless nights tending to a damaged heart. Luckily, my battle scars will start to heal. A few months will go by, and we'll talk as "friends". i'll be wondering if you already found a replacement for me because it's just that easy for you to slip into relationships i guess. I'll be content with the friendship but at this point, i'll still deeply care for you & realize that i don't know how to be your friend. Meaning, i still give you the power to hurt me again. You'll value my friendship less everyday, only talk to me when you're extremely bored out of your damn mind & it'll come to the point where you won't care for me at all, maybe you'll just care for a "part" of me. when you're not able to get that part of me, i'll just become nothing to you. I'll allow myself to feel the pain again, thus taking 7 steps backwards, basically starting the healing process all over again, maybe from square 2. 

mmm, what's love anyhow?