So. i was talking to a very good friend today, & she told me how her homegirl was so torn down by her recent breakup. She pushed away most of her friends because she revolved her whole life around this "man" therefore, her current support system basically consists of one person.. Man oh man do i pitty girls who find themselves in this type of situation. That's why i always gotta stick to my hoes before bros motto. I don't care how perfect a nigga is, if he can't accept that then NEXT. give me my five dollars. haha.
But for the record, my heart is still a bit sore, well only sometimes. I feel pathetic, cause it's been a while. but it's the truth nonetheless. atleast i'm not bitter, haha. All i want is a real friendship, & i understand it takes time. apparently more time than i thought. dude was the only one who wasn't trying to get at me, smother me, be all up on me, which i fucking loved. & that shit is damn hard to find. It just saddens me to think i was just another number on his list when i was willing to give my heart. willing to try. cause honestly, what's worth it if you don't work for it? like a diamonds status, it takes for fucking ever to form but it lasts. or how we rather work than sit on our ass hoping to win the lottery. isn't that why guys like the chase instead of a girl throwing all her goodies at him? good shit doesn't come so easy. Soo yes. whatevs. First love. shit happens, but i'm hella happy though. cause really at the end of the day it ain't that serious. haha.
i hope you'll still browse through my pages
even after you've read all the words.
on a lighter note,
wed- mamas coming home
wed-picking up hazelyn from airport.
thurs-eat eat eat.
friday-blackfriday, work then shopppin'
sat-wooo, sf loves to sac.
sat- fambam thanksgiving potluck
dec 4- happybirthday fugdope !
dec 6-juniors' party, woo oldass !
dec 8- register for classes. =)
love.
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