my ramblings.

No one's independent. We all tend to hold on to things that bring us joy & happiness, but sometimes we start to become dependent on those things, or people that make us happy. Like an addiction. So with that, i think i've been putting my friends first so i wouldn't have to live up to the negative expectation of women becoming dependent on a man. But by doing so, i'm afraid i've become attatched to my actual friends. At this point in my life, i honestly believe i'd die without them. Ok, that was possibly a bit drastic, i guess the right words would be horrifically miserable. 

maybe i am expecting too much..

i've realized that we're not in this world to live up to eachother's expectations. 

But I don't know what's more realistic, not expecting anything, 

or insisting for something better..?

i'd really really like to take a philosophy class right about now. 

love.